Friday, 18 December 2015


I'm going to be taking a YouTube break. If I get a chance, I'll record, edit and upload a video announcing this properly, but for the moment I just want a break, I don't like filming videos when I'm not feeling very cheerful, and I know for a fact that it comes across in my videos when I've filmed in a bad mood.... I can definitely tell.
So yes, I'm going to take a break over the Christmas period.
Honestly I just want Christmas over and done now, I've unfortunately lost all enthusiasm for it (maybe I'm just getting too old for the whole occasion), but yeah I just want to take a break from YouTube, whilst I focus on my coursework for uni which is due January 20th. I hope you guys don't mind. I'll be back sometime in January (if not before) with hauls etc. (I won't be doing a What I Got For Christmas this year! Sorry!) But I'll be showing items I've bought myself in the sales :) Since quite a few people enjoyed the first part of my video games collection video, I'll also be posting the second part this Sunday, and in January I'll do a PS3 haul as I've already planned out what I'll be buying then.

I just want to wish each and every one of you a safe and happy Christmas,
Much Love.
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Sunday, 13 December 2015


So as we all know, Winter and Christmas is the time when everyone whips out the berry/plummy/burgundy shades for their lips, and I've not been an exception for the last two years, but I've realised that this year, I want to do something different.
Wearing a red/bold lip doesn't just make me feel incredibly self conscious "Is it smeared all over my face? Has it spread onto my teeth?!" but it also makes me feel so uncomfortable and become a bit paranoid about wondering if it's smeared all over my face without me realising.
This year, I'm opting for what I feel most comfortable in:
I'm sporting a nude lip.
And no, the simplistic, natural nude lip doesn't have to mean BARE. I'm opting for my favourite lipstick which is MAC Myth, it was a toss-up between this and Honey Love by MAC, but as I'm naturally very pale myself, I wanted something equally pale to subtract away from the fact I've gone for bold shimmery eyeshadow, which has this past month been a mixture of looks created with the Urban Decay Naked 2 palette (YES! I know! I don't 'like' the Naked 2 palette, and since purchasing mine, it has sat redundantly in my draw completely unused, for the year I've had it (I think I've had it a year, maybe it's more?) but at last I've been sporting looks created with this palette.
My favourite shade is 'YDK' a subtle rose/bronze colour (it's peculiar but I have grown to love it) I also didn't mention that my hair is now all over brown and I LOVE IT. I'm honestly considering staying this way permanently. I picked my colour in semi permanent to cover over the green tinted blonde ombre I had, but it just faded super quickly so I grabbed a colour from Boots super quickly (not properly thinking it over) called Warm Reddish Brown (I knew that moment was a mistake!) and at first, this permanent colour was AUBURN, but as it's gently faded, it matches my natural perfectly (in my opnion) because I only covered where the bleach was (from the top of the ears down) and I have naturally ash brown hair with warm reddish tints (AYE I'M HALF SCOTTISH) so I'm super duper happy, the condition is returning and I am just happy with it!
So what lip colour will you be sporting this year?
Today's Music Choice:
Timbaland ft Katy Perry - If We Ever Meet Again.
(Super old school but I love this more and more with time)
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Saturday, 12 December 2015


This weekend I'm working on my second assignments for my two modules at university (coursework that counts towards our degree) I've finished the fiction piece of 2,000 words, but still need to write a 1,000 word critical reflection for it, and that's assignment 2 done for one module, and I'm currently trying to tackle assignment 2 for the other module, which is answering an essay question on Hamlet and The Tempest. It's nothing "confusing" for me, I've always felt naturally literate when it comes to Shakespeare's works, but I don't enjoy formulating essay responses, and it is something that I quite struggle with.
Ah well, I'll hopefully figure this whole "university" thing out sooner or later.
I've lit the fire today and because it's so gusty, the smoke keeps filling the room and IT STINKS! I've got the window open but my goodness it smells horrid. :(
Oh well.
I should probably get on with things, its just a shame I feel so uninspired, tired and have a stomach ache today. I can't stop feeling constantly tired. I wish tablets that could purge your mind of tiredness existed, and wiped out all mental heaviness and tiredness. I'm sick (and tired) of my mind feeling constantly tired. It's lesser when I'm happier, but when I'm at my worst, rawest state, it's like death itself.
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Friday, 4 December 2015


Olly Murs - I've Tried Everything.

Wow. I must be feeling nostalgic today or something, because I'm listening to the entire of this particular album by Olly Murs. I remember buying the CD in Sainsburys when it first came out, and honestly, it's probably my most played CD out of the few I have left... It's certainly been overplayed in the car on very long journeys, as well as in the house during cooking and washing up.
Today I've got to pop out to the doctor's at some point to go and sign up for online appointment booking (because you have to show ID in person to be applicable) and last night I stayed up until 1.30am writing a 2,000 word piece of coursework for university that I'm so incredibly proud of. I wish I could share it, but due to the whole "Don't copy other people" scenario, I wouldn't want to get hauled up when I submit it for potentially copying off of my own blog.... Maybe when I've submitted and had my grades back I'll share it, it's a short story piece of fiction and although I can say I've written some really impressive pieces in my life (yes, blowing my own trumpet, yes, because it's true, I'm extremely proud of a few pieces of coursework for A Level, both in AS Literature and AS Language taken at two different colleges two years after the other) I feel like this latest piece may just be my best yet. And there I was, completely fretting and uninspired, and I've managed to create a whole story that I feel 2,000 words isn't anywhere near enough of a word count for me to get to the "good part". Haha maybe one day I'll write the book version of it, get it published and everyone will finally get to read it!
Coursework aside, my two PS3 games arrived, and I can't stop staring at them! I bought The Last of Us, and Tomb Raider 2013, two games I've wanted for 2 years, and finally purchased (even though I don't have a PS3 yet....) but I'm getting my PS3 after my 21st birthday in January, as I am going to buy it myself. I'm hoping in that time to have bought a wall mount for my grandmothers television so I can mount it opposite my bed (the wall that used to be the main background for all the YouTube videos filmed where I'm sitting on the bed, and it had those three circle prints behind me, yeah, that wall) well my bed is now facing that wall (weird, I know, but my Queen walnut (I think) sleigh bed is MASSIVE and it only just fits in my room, in the most awkward positioning. But I love it now, so there. Maybe I'll do a room tour one day.... Or maybe not, my room permanently looks like a clothes gun has gone off and shot all my clothes over every surface and paperwork all over the floor. I need to get more organised....
Anyway, Lots of Love,
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Monday, 30 November 2015


Hello everyone.
I've taken a short break from blogging as you have probably seen, because I've not felt inspired, or in the right frame of mind to write here for a while now. For personal reasons that I don't wish to disclose, I've been really, very unhappy recently, and it is only now that I'm starting to feel a little better. Things still aren't 100% and I'm not as happy as I used to be, but I'm grateful for the kind support of close family friends and foster family who've lent an ear and generally checked in with me to make sure I'm okay.
A lot has been going on the past two months as a combination of many different things that have been really difficult and unpleasant, but I'm coping now, just so you know, and I won't allow myself to get that low again.
I haven't decorated the house for Christmas yet, because this year I'm getting a real tree, and I can't get it too early otherwise it'll be dead earlier than I'd like it to be, because it's a weird tradition to leave the tree up until early January in our house (beyond the 1st, usually comes down around the 3rd/4th as my birthday is on the 10th, so it's nice to have that festive feeling lasting as long as possible before it outgrows itself).
I can't believe that either. It's 41 days until my birthday (although, now I say it, that sounds miles off...) but it's still very exciting anyway. The student finance is paid the day after my birthday for everyone so I've decided to buy myself a birthday present after the 11th. I've decided what I'll be buying already, and I'm possibly getting my next tattoo, although I'm no 110% sure on it, since I adore the design but don't really know if I want another permanent mark on myself...
But anyway, I just wanted to check in and let you know that despite all of this, I've been regularly uploading to YouTube according to my YouTube schedule of 4pm every Wednesday and 5pm every Sunday, (UK times) and I'm personally very proud of my efforts over there at the moment, I feel like I've come a long way and that I'm very proud of my channel now and the content I upload.
My latest video went live yesterday, all you have to do to view it is click the photo below.
Love and Light, 
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Thursday, 12 November 2015


I think I've come down with a virus because I'll be honest here, I am feeling so rough today. I woke up with a really sore throat, and I've progressed to having a really bad headache and feeling sick. I am told that this morning someone was sick in Primark just suddenly, and apparently there is a virus going round, so I wouldn't be surprised if that was what it was, since I am feeling quite rough.
I just wanted to let everyone know that I've continued working hard to improve my YouTube channel, and I'm now just sprucing up my blog a bit. I used to update my blog every couple of weeks due to my insatiable desire to improve things (Either that or my constant dissatisfaction with the aesthetics of my blog) but I've kept it constant for a good few months now (I can't remember the last time I actually did a routine overhaul of it!)
Not only that, but I've just ordered some new products that I'm going to be reviewing soon, so that'll be exciting to share with you.
I do feel like I'm finally getting my head around artificial lighting (although this won't be visible on my YouTube channel until next month as pre-filming with the old settings still has lighting looking a little dull) but I feel like my new settings have improved this, and this will hopefully become visible later this month.
I hope you've all been enjoying my channel's content recently, I've been making sure that the content is more interesting, and making the effort to ensure I don't ramble (well not as much)
I hope you're all well, I'm going to finish up online and probably crawl back into bed.
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Sunday, 1 November 2015


This past week has been: magical. 

So, the main point of this post was to tell you about my new Halloween Video that I've just uploaded to YouTube, I'll link it below, just click the picture and you'll be taken to it, please remember to like and subscribe if you haven't already, every like and subscribe helps support me!

Although I've been suffering with pretty bad insomnia and the inability to get to sleep, I've made the most of it, as it's given me the time I've needed to collect my thoughts, discover new music, write poetry for three hours until 1am, and sort of get myself into the correct frame of mind for the new modules at university. Last module was about The Odyssey  and now we're studying two modules at the same time since The Odyssey has finished, these are The Craft of Writing (poetry and creative non fiction), and Writing the Modern World (1600-1600). I started these two new modules on the week commencing the 26th of October, and having not fully settled into my previous module, (as I've said before I hate being shunted into new and potentially scary situations, this probably spurs from attending a grand total of 8 schools, secondary schools, sixth forms, colleges and of course, one university). 

However, as daunting as the prospect was of being shoved into two new seminar groups with people I didn't know, I requested to be moved into two seminar groups whereby my two male friends that I bonded with on the first day of university were in, so for one module, I'm with Jack, and the other module, I'm with Dan. My third male friend Lucas in is another seminar group, but the three of us meet up regularly after lectures. I'm hoping this week that I'll get to know other people in the seminar groups a little better. I did miss the first of one of the seminars, which was unfortunate, but I didn't feel well enough to commute on that day. I did briefly talk with two very friendly, bubbly girls in the seminar I did attend, and I'd like to get to know them both a bit better, because as much as I love the boys, I would love some female friends too because what's a conversation without some fashion talk etc?

And yes, I look shoddy in all of these images, two hours on a bus with air con doesn't do makeup or hair a world of justice I can tell you...

From Left to Right: Lucas, Dan & Myself.

L to R: Myself & Jack.

L To R: Me, Dan & Jack.

So yes, now you have faces to names!

Also, before I wrap up this random post, I wanted to share with you a music artist that I've been loving recently, who goes by the name of POGO.

Forget - POGO.

This song makes me both happy, and sad on equal levels, and I feel it's so beautiful. It may not be to your taste, you may think it's bonkers, which I wouldn't deny you the right to think - I felt that way too the first time I heard it!

And the other ones I've been adoring by POGO in particular are:

Upular - POGO.

I absolutely adore this one, and could happily dance to this one, but unfortunately it isn't available to buy on iTunes :( I have bought Forget, and The Trouble though! If you hear the line "PUT ME IN A FLUORESCENT WIG" then kudos to you, and even more kudos if you hear it in a dodgier version haha, I hadn't heard it until I read the comments **massive hint there if you don't know what others think they're actually hearing** it's sang for the first time at 1.35.

And the other I like is 'Alice'.

And lastly, I'm so excited because I've finally got plans for what I'm doing on my 21st birthday with Ben, I'll announce it nearer the time (10th January)

Anyway, I hope you're all doing well, had a wonderful Halloween and haven't gorged yourselves on too much candy!

Lots of Love,
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Sunday, 18 October 2015


So I wanted to just have a general chatty post, because, well, I felt like it.
So I finally bought the entire 'Beneath The Skin' album by Of Monsters & Men on iTunes, and honestly, it's the best £9.99 I've ever spent. I was up until 1.30am this morning listening to it in the dark, lights off and thoughts allowed to flow invigoratingly free.
It was quite healing. I'm the type of person that bottles a lot of stuff up, I don't often like to talk to anyone about my problems, like for example, something that rather damaged me as a child I feel, only really came out and was spoken about by myself one evening recently when everything all became a bit too much. I don't like sharing my problems with others, I really, really don't. I'm a very closed person, and I'm not sure people know that, because I can appear all jolly and open on my blog and social media, but honestly, you'd be getting an inaccurate picture. I keep myself to myself, I appreciate my own company and I don't like bringing up painful memories. Call it damaging, I don't care, I call it protecting.
I'm not a crier either. I think I've mentioned before my immense distaste at crying in public. Not of others, because it saddens me when I see another man or woman crying in public, and my heart goes out to them, and I want to help them, but me crying in public? Never. I'd rather die.
Something that I feel is really touching me recently has been Downton Abbey.
I recently found it the first series free on Amazon Instant Video and I haven't been able to draw myself away from it! So, I went on Depop and found the 1st and 2nd series boxset and purchased it so I can have a hard copy of it! (This is the seller's image)
I'm so excited to get this, it makes me SO MUCH HAPPIER because being frank here, life's been a bit shit at recently, my health has been suffering as a result and I've been a bit depressed (overshare but do I care? Nope not a bit)
Having become an avid Downton Abbey fan, I now have even greater love for my Downton Tabby book that my adopted grandma Wendy bought for me for my 20th! I'm going to be 21 in three months time, bloody scary thought! I already know what my 21st birthday present to myself is going to be :)
Lots of Love,
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Tuesday, 13 October 2015


It's a pretty lugubrious title, and I can't remember if I've used it before, but it's one of the main lines from "All We Do" by Oh Wonder. In case you didn't know, Of Monsters & Men is my favourite band, and Oh Wonder is my second favourite.

I've been a little less active on my blog the last few days because I've been making so many YouTube videos (you wouldn't know it from my channel!) but I've just made a new YouTube schedule, meaning I upload for 4.00pm on Wednesdays and 5.00pm on Sundays (I'll be talking about this in an upcoming video for more information/clarification and my reasoning) but yes, that's super exciting, so I've been making a lot of videos and consistently editing them, and today I started filming for a video I've always wanted to make but have never had the courage to film, because, frankly, I'm not very good at filming this type of video! So to improve, I've been taking the time to read online articles about how best to use my DSLR camera and this speicific model. I'm improving, but I still feel like this type of video can easily be quite overexposed! I'm making a conscious effort to adjust this accordingly, and trying to make my videos more visually interesting, and as well as that (because I appear to have gone off at an absolute tangent!) I've been building my desk today! Yes, it finally arrived, and I managed to drop the heavy box on my foot (full of desk parts I will just say, it wasn't like an extraordinary super weight cardboard empty box, no, funny thought though!) and my foot is now very swollen, black and blue. However, I did manage to build my desk on my own (which I'm very proud of, and typing at now!) so yes, I'm happy, and my new desk lamp is pretty stylish!

And a close up on some of my desk decor:

This is Pepper the french bulldog. When I'm a bit older and have my own place, I'm going to get a black french bulldog and call him/her (I haven't settled on which gender I'd like) Pepper. I'm always a cat person, 110%, but I do really like French Bulldogs and I would imagine that's down to their size,  short hair, and cat like proportions and upright ears! I'll also have a cat though, whether that is Gu, or after her time (oh good god that feels horrible to write that, and I don't often think that far ahead)

And can we just take a moment to appreciate my moon transitional print? How gorgeous is that??!!

And a moment of appreciation for my two new LARGE YANKEE CANDLES please?
I chose Orange Splash as I'm running low on my small Pink Sands jar that Courtney bought me, and when I'm not burning heavy autumnal scents, I like to burn rather more fresh fragrances, and I'd had my eye on this one awhile so I picked it as the replacement, although I will repurchase Pink Sands in a large jar eventually!
And my other new fragrance is Vanilla Bourbon and oh my word I don't know if I love or hate this one- it is SO STRONG! Like really, really pungent! It's a crossover of coffee and burnt toffee - I love toffee, but I hate Coffee! The smell, the taste, everything! I'm a big tea drinker. Be warned if you do choose this scent - a few hours burning and your entire house will smell of it, be that good or bad!

I feel better for popping in and checking up on you all haha, I never like leaving my blog unattended for very long!

Tonight's music pick, is something I find very, very beautiful. It's a bit of a raw, honest song, but it really resonates with me, on so many levels, and about so many experiences, with a couple of people,

Of Monsters & Men - Organs.

"I am tired of punching in the wind

I am tired of letting it all in"

Love & Light,
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Saturday, 10 October 2015


So the last time I did a blog post about my daily makeup was probably the beginning of 2014.... weird, I know, plus it was posted on my beauty blog which was permanently archived because I didn't use it enough and would rather everything stayed together here. 

So, it's time to share with you what I've been using daily for Autumn!

The Products:

MAC 'Myth' Lipstick
Laura Mercier 'FireGlow' Eyeshadow
Rimmel Sun Shimmer Bronzing Compact Poweder in 'Light Shummer'
Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara
L'Oreal Paris Infallible 24 Hour Matte Foundation in '10 Porcelain'
Anastasia Dip Brow Pomade in 'Soft Brown'
Maybelline Baby Skin Instant Fatigue Blur (Primer) in 'Warm Apricot'
Zoeva Rose Golden Brush Set.

As you can see, I've found the perfect combination of makeup for me. As I have combination skin, with an oily T-Zone (especially the center of my chin, above my eyebrows, and above the left and ride sides of my upper lip), it's important I use products that won't set my skin flaring off, as it does this frequently, more so when I'm stressed.  

I love the foundation by L'Oreal because it is really high coverage, it hides most of my blemishes almost entirely. If I want extra coverage, then I'll use the Collection Concealer in '01 Fair' (not pictured).

The Instant Fatigue Blur by Maybelline primes the skin and warms everything up before applying the base, it keeps the makeup evenly applied for hours. Since being at university (applying makeup at 5.30am, and removing it at 11.00pm at night sometimes) I've found I need really long lasting makeup that won't let me down, and so far, this overall combination works for me.

I like to switch up my lipstick on a daily basis, but my two main choices are the newest editions to my MAC lipstick collection.

The lipsticks I reach for on a daily basis are Studded Kiss (deep oxblood red) and Myth (peachy, warm nude).

I hope you enjoyed a brief look into my daily makeup.

Will you be trying any of the products featured?

Love & Light,
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Thursday, 8 October 2015


So I recently posted this image to my Instagram, and asked if anyone would be interested in seeing the recipe for it, and the result was "yes!" so I'm here today to share it with you. (Well, it's 8.02pm on Wednesday 7th October, and I've lit a fire, I'm burning my large cinnamon stick Yankee Candle, and I'm relaxing after having cooked this recipe, and decided what better time to write up the recipe than when it's fresh on my mind? Plus, listening to beautiful tropical house remixes helps pull things together - especially when I haven't listened to it in a long time!)
Okay, so here's what you'll need to serve 1 person:
1/2 a Nectarine
2 Tablespoons Soft White Sugar
1 Tablespoon Water
2 Tablespoons Double Cream
1 Handful Of Pecans
1 Tablespoon Of Vanilla Ice Cream (I used Carte Dore)
Firstly, de- stone the nectarine, and cut in half. Store one half in a sealed Tupperware box. 
Next, start making the toffee (yes, it is toffee, because if you like Werther's Originals Sweets, then that's what we're basically making in it's rawest form and liquid, heaven, I know)
Put the sugar and water into a saucepan, and stir until combined, then bring to the boil. It is crucial that you DO NOT LEAVE THE MIXTURE AT ANY TIME. You must stay with the mix if you want to get this just right - leaving for a second will result in it burning. Keep watching the mixture intently. 

The colour should gradually change to a light yellow colour: keep watching and be ready with the cream. Once it has turned to a light to mid gold colour, immediately remove from the heat, pour in the cream and whisk with a hand whisk carefully and briskly to ensure the mixture combines thoroughly to avoid lumps forming. Please bare in mind the sugar is red hot - we're talking like a mini solar system here - if this gets on you, you'll more than likely end up in hospital, so please don't be reckless, please be really careful when whisking it!

Meanwhile, leave it to cool slightly and put the nectarine under the grill until warmed through.

Once they are warmed through, roughly chop the pecans into small bits like small lumps of gravel (for a size comparison!)

Place the nectarine into a bowl, add a scoop of vanilla ice cream, and pour over the toffee sauce. Remember, it's super hot still, and immediately soak the saucepan - toffee can be a pain in the rear to clean off saucepans!

Next, generously scatter over the pecans, et voila, you're finished! Make sure the toffee is only warm when you eat it - you don't want red hot toffee in your mouth - just trust me on that one!

So I hope you enjoyed this delicious autumnal desert, if you do decide to make it, just tag me in your photo on Instagram, I'm @thegirlcriedfashion!

Today's music choice: 

Tom Odell - Another Love (Zwette Edit)

Love & Light,
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Wednesday, 7 October 2015


And as I said many months ago, once Summer has shed her warming cloak, and Summer turns to Autumn leaves, I too shall shed my ways, and revert to who I was before.

Welcome Autumn. Oh how I've missed you. October 2014 taught me many things. I took many memorable blog photos and OOTDs, looking back at them is somehow comforting, to be able to reminisce about all that was happening in my life back then.

Well, what can I associate this time next year with October 2015? I've moved on with my life. I found something not many are able to find in this day and age, and that is inner peace. I've realized by now at this age what makes me truly happy, and what is just a façade. I can recognize the good in people, and unfortunately, also the bad. I see things with new eyes everyday (even if my sight is quite blurry without the aid of some form of lenses to help magnify it all, and bring it to me in crystal clear resolution).

Autumn brings the gentle colder breeze with the sunshine still beating down, the falling golden leaves, the start to lighting fires, and the scents that make your heart swoon with appreciation. Autumn is the time that you remember fondly throughout the year, and somehow, when you're older, appreciate all the more.
So to encapsulate all my feelings about Autumn, I have created an Autumn GRWM on my channel on YouTube, and it'd mean the world to me if you took a look at it, liked and subscribed. You know the drill by now, just click the photo below to be taken to it. So much time and love has gone into this particular project, I hope you all love it.

Love & Light,
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