Friday, 30 January 2015


This week has been about rediscovering old favourites for me, both musically, and beauty-wise. I haphazardly painted my nails this morning with the Model's Own 'Blueberry Scented Nailpolish' and every time I have to move my hair away from my eyes, I get the most amazing smell of blueberry muffins, it's hilarious. I really must try the Strawberry one, and banana split one again. They've been sitting on my shelf, unused and unloved for quite enough time.
As for music, this week was about returning to old songs, and discovering a new one. Usually, I like specific music for the deep meaning of the lyrics, and how they in some way, link to my life. I discovered (a little late on the bandwagon I know...) Sia - Elastic Heart. However, this song has absolutely no relevance to me, or my life, I just like the pace, and feeling of this song. I can't say I like the music video (awkwardness ahead) but other than that, I've been listening to this song a lot recently. 
I've also been enjoying this vine, of a cat, and it's resulted in a lot of laughs this week:
YASS cat.

No, don't ask me why this makes me laugh. It just does, okay? 
Of course the week wouldn't be complete without 'I See Fire' Ed Sheeran Kygo remix, but I discovered a new song by 'Of Monsters & Men', and I've fallen completely and utterly in love with it. The video is just, breathtaking. I love everything about this, the song is so beautiful, and it makes me sigh with happiness.
Of Monsters & Men - King & Lionheart.
I guess I adore the music video because it reminds me of The Golden Compass, and the idea of daemons walking alongside us, as a form of our spirit. Plus, the whole composition of the piece is beautiful, the strumming at the beginning is perfection.
"And as the world comes to an end
I'll be here to hold your hand
'Cause you're my king and I'm your lionheart."
Yes, beautiful, romantic images, because that's how I feel right now, (just want to clarify, I mean romantic, not beautiful, because I'd really be blowing my own trumpet haha and that just isn't me, nor my style!!!)
And I just want to say to whoever it is that is reading this, follow your heart. You won't be disappointed in whatever decisions you make. Just a bit of Samantha feeling for today. 
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Tuesday, 27 January 2015


I decided that after my last video on Youtube three weeks ago, that I'm going to go on a little break from Youtube, I don't have any particular reason, but I just fancy a little rester from it, since it takes a lot of preparation each time I decide to film something, so I'm taking a mini vacation, shall we call it.
It doesn't mean I'm not coming back, don't get that idea by any means, because I'm definitely going to be filming again, I'm thinking in a couple of weeks, maybe sooner, but I'm really enjoying life away from Youtube at the moment, with the busy college enviornment, and especially getting an offer from my most wanted university, has meant I'm spending a lot more studying, and a lot less yapping to a camera. So bear with me, I will be back.
Truthfully, I am happy to be moving foward, toward my goal, but I'm also sad that I'm going to be leaving the one class I am happily settled into, I guess, it's like a weird little family, with the outspoken ones, the ones who you can't get to talk, the ones who won't stop laughing (ahem, yours truly), and the ones who just make your day all the better for being around them. I wish I'd met this class last year, because I can honestly say I like everyone in it, and what you see is what you get. So I will really, really miss them all when I leave, as they're AS level, and I'm A2, but taking that AS as an extra.

As for my blog, thegirlcriedbeauty, I'm also taking a breather from it. However, this is a long break, with no definitive end, and since I don't post so often on TGCB, I'm considering merging the two sites, as beauty, isn't something I often wish to, or feel the need to discuss.

Anyway, I really should be getting on with my college studying. 

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Thursday, 22 January 2015


So when I got home this evening, I discovered my dream had come true. I have an offer from my favourite university. It was the last one that I was waiting to hear from, and now I know, I have the inspiration, and strength I need to pull me through. I am expected to get very high grades in my two A2 classes, so now, it's time to pull through. I had a beautiful day at college, in my favourite lesson, which I left feeling really happy, and now, I feel like my heart is on fire. I'm elated, over the moon, ecstatic, and most importantly, I realise, I can do this. 

Yes, I've had my trials and tribulations, hell, we all have, but the above quote is true, "Stars don't shine without darkness." It's true, and here I am, feeling on top of the world, and I can say, my heart is happier than it's been in many years. 

Fantasia, of course. If you haven't seen this, and you like classical music, and Disney, then you're in for a treat.
Don't ever give up on your dream. Never, ever. I so nearly did, I so nearly lost sight of what it was that I wanted most, and almost began settling for second best in terms of what I could achieve, but I have the encouragement, love, and support that I need to get me there. My best friend is a saint, and was almost screaming whilst walking down the street on the phone to me, my mum couldn't stop hugging me, and I've had endless calls to congratulate me, and it makes me realise, that with belief, and love, you can do anything. Anything is possible.

Yes. I'm mushy, I'm sentimental. I'm a mushy, sentimental woman, with a heart on fire, and a passion to succeed, and who is going to hold me back? No-one. 

I'm so grateful for this opportunity, and I'm not going to let it go easily. 
I thanked my grandma as soon as I found out, because I prayed to her, I prayed really hard for this chance, and I know that wherever she is, she's proud of me, and that to me, matters more than anything, to make my family proud, my mother, my grandmother, and Gu, is what I strive for.

Please take a listen to 
(01:25:33) Shine (Kygo Remix) - Benjamin Francis Leftwich 

On the Ultimate Kygo Remix tonight, it's beautiful, the lyrics are beautiful, and it's quite soothing, like the entire soundtrack. 

"I could live in a different place
With a different house and a different name
I could sing you your favourite song 
Yeah, you'd sing along, you'd sing along

I could wrap you in your favourite clothes
And kiss your face just so you know
That I'm the one who has got your back 
Now turn around and don't be sad

I hope you find the love that's true
So the morning light can shine on you
I hope you find what you're looking for 
So your heart is warm for ever more

I could fly you away with me
To the furthest place you'll ever be
We could smoke 'til the sun goes down
And without a sound, without a sound

We'd fall asleep by the big blue sea
With open eyes so we could see
The way it shines for you and I
You know it'll shine until we fly

I hope you find the love that's true
So the morning light can shine on you
I hope you find what you're looking for
So your heart is warm for ever more

I could wait with you by the water
I could wait with you for the winter to come
I could stand with you with your snow boots on

I hope you find the love that's true
So the morning light can shine on you
I hope you find what you're looking for
So your heart is warm for ever more

I hope you find what you're looking for
So your heart is warm for ever more"

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Tuesday, 20 January 2015


Lyric title, of course, what else were you expecting of me?

"So don't you worry

You'll be my resolution
Characters of no illusion
You will be my resolution"

I'm returning to older music that I used to adore today, as well as the obvious Ultimate Kygo Remix, which, I will never stop loving. My favourite is still 'I See Fire' by Ed Sheeran, but I also love 'Cut Your Teeth' by Kyla La Grange. 
Ultimate Kygo 2015.
This morning, I hit, 600 subscribers on YouTube. It'll probably end up on 599 again, but I can't believe it, we got there, yet another hundred of you wonderful people. I can't say it enough, YouTube is one of the reasons I found myself again, because I'm able to talk to you all, and I don't feel like it has to permanently be serious, although sometimes it can be, it doesn't have to be stressful, it's just me, talking to all of you, about things that make me, and hopefully you too, happy. 
Anyway, enough of my soft moment, it's true though, I'm not vulnerable or weak, I just sometimes feel passionate about this, or maybe get a little mushy, and it's because YouTube and my blog has been a salvation, from loneliness after my friends went to university, grief two years on, and not finding a relationship that fits yet, although, a lot has changed in a year and a bit. I've made new friends, and I'm closer than ever to my best friend, and even believe I might find love this year. Oh man, there I go again, getting all soppy. *passes out chocolate oreo to all reading this so they can get back to reality*
I must go, this is getting really long. Plus, my hands are so cold, I keep missing keys on the keyboard.... Cold hands, warm heart. OKAY I'M DONE.
Big squishy hugs,
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*I do not own any of the images in this post.*

Saturday, 17 January 2015


Okay, a lyric title, I know, but I had to share this with you.
Whilst working today from scratch on my weakest subject in college, I found this.

Ultimate Kygo Mix 2015.

I am happier than a Cheshire cat right now. It's every beautiful, peaceful, perfect, calming mix by Kygo, but in the ultimate blend. Now, I loved the 2013/2014 mix that lasts for 45 or so minutes, but this, this beauty lasts for 2 hours, and I am in heaven. When I die, I want this to be played at my funeral, because if this can make me feel peaceful, then I would want people hearing it to feel the same. Morbid thought of the day done. Not that I often have morbid thoughts during the day. My mind is generally too busy thinking about other things, but hey, that was my morbid thought for the day.

Anyway, back to the Earl Grey tea and quarrying I guess. I hope you're all having a beautiful day, and that it is filled with happy thoughts.

Big snuggly hugs from myself and Gu,
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Friday, 16 January 2015


Okay, so I guess I'm back into the blogging spirit.
Last night, in an attempt to find more Kygo remixes that I loved, I discovered two entirely new ones to me. I had never heard the original unmixed pieces before either, but I fell for these two songs, and have had them on repeat since then.

They are:
The Weeknd - Often
Of Monsters & Men - Dirty Paws.
I am going to advise that if you choose to listen to 'Often' it does have some originally, very inappropriate lyrics, so please, listen at your own risk. The remix is fairly clean, although has strong hints to it's original lyrics. I'm only saying this since I know from my google analytics that I have some quite young readers of my blog, and I don't want to end up in trouble for suggesting a really inappropriate piece of music, plus I don't want you ending up in trouble with your parents either (if you're older, then just ignore this!) - it's like watching a Pewdiepie video in front of your parents - generally you wouldn't do it, due to the consistent swearing.
Dirty Paws is entirely clean and innocent, and has a great rhythm, and I honestly cannot find better relaxing music than anything Kygo has remixed.
I mean, the music is sensual, but not in an overtly sexual way or anything, it's all fairly clean, it's just completely calming, and I guess you could even venture as far to say that it cleanses your soul a bit.

  And yes, I do have a great affinity for the ocean, and water, I just love it, and that's part of the reason the bus journey is beareable, I can sit and watch the waves rolling in on the shore, and I once more can feel peaceful.

"Her dirty paws and furry coat,
She ran down the forest slopes.
The forest of talking trees;
They used to sing about the birds and the bees.
The bees had declared a war;
The sky wasn't big enough for them all.
The birds, they got help from below,
From dirty paws and the creatures of snow."

Have a beautiful day, whoever you are, wherever you are, and be sure to take a listen to Dirty Paws, if not Often too, both are very, very calming.

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Thursday, 15 January 2015


Last weekend was my birthday, and I apologize that I haven't written anything on my blog for awhile, I've just not really wanted to (okay, blatent honesty is honest) but it's true, it's not that I didn't have the heart to, I just didn't really feel like talking (or writing, since I am saying this all in my head as I type this, so I consider it, in it's own weird little way, more speaking than writing, because I do feel like I'm talking about it)
Anyway, so it was a very busy weekend. On Thursday, my mum, our family friend, and myself went out to dinner at the Beefeater (if you haven't been, then you're missing out, it's a sort of tradition with our lot), then on Friday, my mum, myself, my adopted Grandma Wendy, and her friend Roger all went to see a Philharmonic Orchestra playing live Strauss, which, I have already mentioned, I really enjoy classical music, and since discovering Fantasia, I felt like I was in a real live Fantasia.
I'll come back to Fantasia as a point of discussion later!
 I went out on Saturday with my best friend Courtney, we went window shopping (as I'm still saving my money up!), she managed to get a Yankee Candle in 'Fireside Treats' large jar for £9.99 in the sale, so she's a very happy bunny! We met up in town unexpectedly with a lovely friend of mine (Alastair) so Courtney and Alastair got to meet for the first time, and we had a truly enjoyable time walking together, window shopping. Courtney and I then went to dinner that afternoon/evening, at the same place we went to for my 18th, and it was so enjoyable.
Out for dinner with the bestie.
On the Sunday, we had a lot of family/family friends/people who've known me since I was little/a baby, and they came over to the house for a small tea party, which was so lovely.
Overall, my 20th, most definitely surpassed all expectation. It was definitely the best birthday I've had so far, and there was I thinking my 18th would be unbeatable!
Anyway, the whole weekend was beautiful, and thoroughly enjoyable. I'm also a very lucky girl because I was gifted a giftcard for a large store that sells designers, and not well known brands at less than retail, and when I went in, I had been blabbering about saving up for something expensive, when I spotted something, with a name on it that I recognised:

Yes. That's a Michael Kors iPad case. (It't the most stunning royal blue - like really, really bright blue, but unfortunately my camera at night made it look black) And yes, it was £19.99. Yep, I was running up to the queue where Courtney was buying a Parma Violets candle squealing loudly to Courtney with excitement. (I really must try to act more my age, but I was pretty darn happy about this find, I love bargains, and this for me, was a steal. Bare in mind the retail price of these can be £50+!)

So that was an amazing find! Courtney got me the Lindt Coconut Lindor chocolates (They're my favourite, so extra best friend points to her!) and 'The Rescuers Down Under' I had already, but got the shiny LE cover recently to compliment it. Yes, I really need to photograph my collection, or compose a collection video, but I'm just a bit ... what's the word please? I don't know, disorganised with it at the minute, so it'll have to wait. I know a lot of people enjoyed the Lilo & Stitch collection video (actually, that's my most liked YouTube video, with 56 likes currently).

I also managed to scoop a copy of Fantasia 2000, and I cannot wait to see it. A huge thank you to Oliver who found me on Instagram and offered to pick it up for me! And yes, that's another shiny LE cover there.

Anyway, I hope you all had a really enjoyable weekend and start to your week, I don't have a lesson until 3pm, but I'm in college early, and having done my coursework, I don't have a lot to do, except drinking tea and hunting the building for people I know. I'm just grateful I've done what I can for now on the coursework and got myself somewhat organised. 
And having just seen my YouTube channel subscriber count, I'm now squeeing inside. 595??!! THANK YOU SO MUCH! Nearly 600, I cannot believe it, I swear it was only last month I was saying I hoped to hit 500 or something? Wow, wow, wow. This, the blogging, the YouTube channel, sometimes, I'm sure it's what keeps me going, and keeps me smiling, so thank you. 

Some music that keeps me going: (really beginning to think my taste has become so indie lately, but I don't care, I'm me, that's that)

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Wednesday, 7 January 2015


I really dislike Wednesdays. Early morning start, a long lesson, followed by a 2 hour break, before a lesson that goes on for 3 hours, with a 15 minute break in between. It's just a really, really, tedious day. I don't need to say more.
But disregarding the blatent dullness of Wednesday, I am very much looking forward to the weekend. It's my birthday on Saturday, and on the Friday, I'm making some party snacks like meringues with berries and chocolate ganache (bite sized) for a lovely little close friends/family event (in other words, my mum, myself, Gu, my neighbour and my adopted grandma) for a little tea event (I'm so traditional), and then on Saturday, I'm having a very civilised day out with the bestie, going around the town, shopping (well just looking for me, as I'm saving for a very expensive item, and no it isn't a car!) and then we are going for a late lunch/early dinner at a very classy Italian place we love (and went to for my 18th birthday) for a relaxing meal and a drink. As someone who doesn't drink a lot (well, any actually) alcohol, I don't see the point in going out drinking for my 20th, there doesn't seem to be any point, so I decided this would be a better idea instead. On Sunday, my mum and I are going to do something together, then we'll watch a Disney movie together with dinner (as she doesn't really 'do' Disney films, and she said for this special ocassion she will! Darn it,where is that crying with laughter emoji? Someone needs to invent a blogger suitable one sometime soon!)
So yes, all in all, a lot to look forward to. It would be a lot better if it was a Thursday, where I get a lie in, do my work in the morning, sort my YouTube videos out, edit etc, then go in for a lesson at 3, which I really enjoy. But no, it's a Wednesday, and we must all struggle on. Yes, the struggle is real. However, I do love all the guys that go in the computer rooms, watch 'Fail Videos' and end up shouting, and screaming at the computer, because people are doing such silly things, it's always really amusing to witness. (Plus, I was watching one this morning, and a whole group of boys nearby turned around to watch it too as it was really quite funny).
Anyway, enjoy (as best you can) this Wednesday of doom.
Also, if you have Instagram, please check out my page: and give me a follow if you have Instagram too! I'm nearly at 200 followers (party squeaky things that you have at birthdays and they make a load of noise)
Sigma - Nobody To Love.
(This song just has such a good rhythm to it, I discovered it yesterday, and have been enjoying it since)
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Monday, 5 January 2015


New video is being uploaded this evening, I filmed it at the same time as my previous two videos, I'm glad I did, otherwise there wouldn't be a video tonight, as my neighbours kept me awake all night again. *ugh* But I did have a lovely lesson today which cheered me up. (Plus, having a lie down with Gu before going out again cheered me up too!)

Also had a glasses/sight check today, and despite getting new glasses on Wednesday, apparently since I hadn't had my sight checked in over a year, my prescription has changed again, so I have a more up to date prescription which they can't fit in my new frames (they're Prada frames, and where I get my sight tested does not stock this brand, so I bought mine online) as the materials they use to put the lenses in might break the frames :( *doubleugh* oh well, I'm getting a free spare pair of glasses for home with the new prescription which don't look hideous so I can't complain, although I will continue to wear the Prada glasses whenever I go out as they're not too weak a prescription and I love them, a LOT. I waited 5 years to be able to get some at an affordable price, and thankfully I got them last Wednesday!

EDIT: Video is linked, you can now click the photo to be taken to YouTube.

Lots of love and SNUGGLY HUGS again because I can,
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Friday, 2 January 2015


EDIT: New Haul Video Live!
Just click on my YouTube count on the right of this post to see it!
I was lying awake last night, unable to sleep, and I kept seeing the faces of the people I've lost so vividly again, like sharp flashbacks, and I felt the same stabbing pain again as I felt when they died. I thought it wasn't possible to remember them in such spectacular detail, but apparently it is.
It's made me realise, it's okay to feel pain, it's hard to trust, it's hard to love, but when you find love, you never really, truly let go of those feelings, no matter where the person the feelings are attached to is.
"Don't close your eyes, because your futures ready to shine."
I'm sometimes so busy planning for the future that I forget to sometimes just remember how I've gotten here, and I'm sure we're all guilty of it, but ocassionally we need to just sit down and remember how it is that we've ended up where we are today, and thank those who've made it possible.
I guess I'm just feeling soppy after my recollecting, but your heart is never wrong, and whilst our heads tell us to be smart, sometimes we listen to our hearts instead. Trust is something that shouldn't be broken, as it takes years to build and only seconds to destroy. And the saying about 'Keep your friends close, but your enemies even closer?' don't listen to it.
(Ignore the music video for both of these, it's abismal, but the song, and Owl City are sheer perfection, for helping you to smile):
When Can I See You Again - Owl City.
Shiny Your Way - Owl City & Yuna.

"Feed the feeling in your heart,
Don't conceal it then you'll start,
To find, find your way

No one can stop, what has begun,
You must believe when I say

All of your tears will dry faster in the sun,
Starting today,
Shine, shine, shine,
Shine your way"

Learn to trust your heart again, and you'll never be afraid.

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Thursday, 1 January 2015


Firstly, I hope you all had a wonderful New Year's Eve, and HAPPY NEW YEAR!

So today, mum and I went and had lunch in a local place, which was lovely and relaxing, and we ended up doing 'The Independent' crosswords, and almost completing it, and a nice couple beside us helped us out on the last two!

We then went and caught up with my lovely friend Holly, ( and her wonderful family, as they had come down to where I live for the New Year. We had a wonderful catch up, a lot of laughing was done, a lot of university talk, as Holly is currently at uni, and she helped me out a lot with planning for September, as it's what I live for at the moment! She helped me a lot with what I need to take, by giving me ideas that you probably don't think of until you are at university! I can't wait to go, I honestly can't, I'm so excited.

It was just so wonderful catching up with her again, and every time we see each other, it's like no time has passed at all. We've known each other since I was 5 and Holly was 4 (I've probably mentioned this before!) and I asked her if she wanted to play with me on our local beach and we've been close friends ever since! (Darn it blogger, why don't you have a crying with laughter emoticon?!)

She surprised me as well when I asked her what she got for Christmas, and when she had told me, she said "I already know what you got, I watched your video, I always watch your videos" which was so sweet and touching, and really made me smile. *goes all fuzzy*

Anyway, I hope you've had a wonderful New Year's Day, not long now until we're all back at work and college, which I can't tell if that is good or bad right now, but I guess it's another step towards university, so bring it on 2015!

Here's What I'm Listening To Today: (Bear in mind, I don't like Eastenders, and there are a lot of people from it in the song, but they're doing it for charity, so it's all worthwhile, the person I like the most in the song is definitely Jo Brand, she's brilliant!)

Wake Me Up - Gareth Malone's Children In Need Song.

"Well life's a game made for everyone, and love is the prize."

Love and big snuggly hugs,
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